I am a day late with this post, as my site decided not to post it at the scheduled time yesterday. However, I am glad it did because something happened yesterday and I wanted to share with you what I learned from it.
As some of you will know, I have been ill for the past four months. Vertigo and light headedness have taken over my life and despite numerous different medications, head manoeuvres and scans, it didn’t appear to be getting any better.
Yesterday, I decided I had had enough; I need to get my life back so I made an appointment with the GP. This time I saw someone different who decided to go back to the very basics, looking at my lifestyle, the stress, etc.
She also, for the first time, took my blood pressure. It was high! In fact it was very high. It would appear that my vertigo has caused me to be less active, and as a result I have been eating more and gone back to the horrible cigarettes rather than the e-cig. All of this had resulted in my blood pressure rising, which in turn is making me feel light headed, which in turn makes me sit down more – and so on and so forth!
As scary as it was to see the reading on the monitor, it was a relief to get something I can work with. I can do something about my lifestyle and have promised the doctor I will make the changes I needed. I had started to feel totally out of control with the possible causes of my vertigo.
However, when I got home, I really went to town on myself. Calling myself all the names under the sun for being so rubbish at maintaining a healthy lifestyle. I gave myself a hard time about much my children need me and how selfish I had been.
It took a really lovely phone call from a lovely friend to make me sit back and think. She was so supportive, congratulated me on what I had managed to achieve whilst ill and was so positive about the changes I can make. So why was I so hard on myself?
We are our own worst enemy. We speak to ourselves in ways we would never speak to a good friend.
I would never speak to anyone the way I spoke to myself yesterday.
Today I am being nicer to myself. How about you?